Friday, October 21, 2011

Remembering Europe

I am ready to face my experiences in Europe over this past summer, and I will do that by typing up my notes from the places we visited. The notes may be disjointed, and I am not going to include personal details. But hopefully going through my "Notes and Quotes" book will help me understand my journey through Eastern Europe and--distantly, because I don't believe comprehension is possible--the Holocaust. If this is hard for you to read, sorry I'm not sorry. People need to know what happened.

Berlin
6/29/11
Today we sat on benches in Tier Garden where Jews were not allowed to sit under the Nurenberg Laws. We ate kosher bagged lunches. I asked about the German coke and Jules Gutin said it had a lot of gas. Ha.
Gay Memorial: Each group's story is different. Just imagine that-showing love and affection was criminal.
Memorial to the Murdered Jews of Europe(cement boxes): What do people passing by think they are looking at?
It's like the maze in Harry Potter IV, you lose yourself in it. It looks like a cemetery. You can't tell what's going on from the outside. Suddenly it feels like you don't know how to get out. Isolation, no writing, no names, lost identity.
[Resist War, Defend Peace.
Through science to justice.]
Only 2% of visitors at the Jewish Museum in Berlin are Jewish. Our tour guide's name is Karsten Kreiger, "The Christian Warrior." He is fantastic.
Humboldt Universitaet: Where they burn books, eventually they will burn people.
Why do Christian Germans serve as tour guides at these places?
"It happened, therefore it can happen again. This is the core of what we have to say." -Primo Levi
Our tour guide's grandfather was a "Nazi until the day he died" but still he loved his grandfather so much. This was extremely difficult for our tour guide to reconcile.
"Why war still? Why hunger still? Why a world still?" Oskar Rosenfeld
"For what and for whom do I carry on this whole pursuit of life, enduring, holding out--for what?"
"We would so love to live but they won't let us and we will die."
How should we react to the grandchildren of our enemies??
Grunevald Station: In 1944, it was written, "From this place, people were sent away." Well, yes. 56,000 Jews were sent to their deaths.
On the road: bathroom attendant at a rest stop in Germany speaks Hebrew
View of Dresden from the bus: long, red buildings, old castles, churches, beautiful

Praha, July 3rd, 2011
We met up with a group of Israeli girls who are here for a dance competition. They sang happy birthday to Jessica, and Zach took pictures with them. Then they danced for us, they were very cute.
"You cannot be passive about your Judaism; you cannot be passive about making the world a better place." --Shlomo Molcho
At Chevre Kadisha: Sickness represents a call to help one's fellow human beings. This is why medical intervention to heal the sick is not seen as a negation of God's will but as a religious duty.

My subgroup was invited to write down notes in my journal. Here is what they wrote:
"When we were at the Vansee Conference location, people were annoyed about how pretty it was and were saying things like, 'I wish it was ugly or rundown,' or, 'we should spit on it.' But would it really be better that way?
"How can we celebrate our birthdays if we know that so many people suffered on those very same days?"
"How did 15 people in a room at Vansee determine the fates of millions? How did they feel they had that right?"

Terezin, Czech Republic, 7/4/11:
Population 2011: 7,000
30,000-40,000 Jews lived here by force
Jews had their own currency system in the Ghetto. There was a propaganda movie made in the Ghetto--Holocaust denial during the Holocaust. The city was moated and walled.
Subconscious thought brought to the surface: in the scope of 6 million, 5 is nothing. 50 is little, 500 is not that bad.
Men and women were not allowed to live together or have intercourse.
I saw a bird in the town square picking at an apple core. That would have been a person.
Starvation in the ghettos: people became weak, susceptible to disease, 196 average deaths per day.
SO MUCH DECEPTION
Jews focused on education in the Ghetto. The intelligensia read to the kids and taught them in private.
Once the commander of Terezin found out all the Jews were destined to die anyway, he let them do what they wanted, cultural life flourished.
In the sleeping quarters: up to 400 people lived in this room, but we (50 of us) can barely fit into a third of it, standing. No showers, no bathrooms, no radios. Lice. Hanging from a bed post--a pale blue dress with a Jude star on it. They wore colors?
While they made their beds and got dressed in the morning, they also had to remove dead bodies.
Jews here had a secret newspaper. The children put on operas, there were classical music concerts, people wrote original songs, poems, plays. A lot of creations were brought with deportees to the camps because they didn't know what was going to happen.
Survivor of Terezin, Irene: This woman was touring the museum at the same time as us. Our tour guide begged and pleaded with her to come and talk to us. Once she started talking, she couldn't stop.


Sunday, September 25, 2011

Those who can, sleep. Those who cannot, blog.

It is past midnight and I have a prelim in Human Biology and Evolution tomorrow (what up lactase promoter sequence mutations) but there is just oh so much excitement in my life that I cannot sleep!

What is all this excitement, you ask? Wellllllll

1. I might appear on MTV across from sex columnist Dan Savage
2. Kappa Delta just announced that I have TWO WEEKS to find THREE GIRLS attractive Jewish dates for date night
3. I changed my profile picture today (thanks Rachies!) and I've been refreshing my facebook frequently in the hopes of receiving positive feedback
4. I have 5 classes tomorrow, including a lab, and an E-Board meeting for Hillel, and lab makes me nervous
5. When I say lab makes me nervous, I actually mean that my blood pressure remains in the "heavy workout zone" for approximately an hour after the chemistry has been completed and cleaned up
6. I am simply not ready for it to be October
7. I need to learn my Torah portion for Rosh Hashanah!
8. I've selected my wedding song (but not the person I'm wedding)...hope my groom likes Rascal Flatts
9. I went to see "Midnight in Paris" with Adina on Saturday and we sat in the couple's seat in the non-profit indie movie theater
10. I've attended so many meetings in the last week my head is going to explode--enough with the opinions, people! If you feel strongly about things and have many opinions, do what I do. Get a blog and shove the link in everyone's face LATER, don't talk your face off at a meeting when everyone's got shit to do
11. I attended Sammy Date Night last night (thanks for taking me, Andrew!) and it was exciting because....I ATE SALMON AND I DIDN'T HATE IT! I even put salmon on the fork with mashed potatoes all at the same time and it was BETTER than each of those things on their own! Wow!!

Eleven seems like a pretty solid number so I'm going to end it here and hope that my cyber rant has alleviated my mind from the burden of trying to sort out all of the excitement in my life.

Laila tov

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Riding the Struggle Bus

This morning I woke up with a start at 7:35am, which appeared in my mind as 8:35am. I got dressed in a huff, checked my email before I ran out the door, and noticed that my morning alarm had just started to beep. At this point, I was not an hour late, but an hour early.

I attempted to go back to sleep for a half hour and failed, probably due to trying to maintain my hair and make up, which I'd already done. Now I have an extra half hour in my day so I decided to blog about my other struggles.

First of all, let me say that this whole 9am class thing is not ideal. I did it last semester too, and said I never would again. I am just bad at waking up. The good news is that my first class is physics and the professor is beyond adorable and has a great Swedish accent, so that's okay.

Second of all, I do not really understand the electron orbital stuff we're doing in chem right now and I need Juhi to teach me. This girl literally stands at the Struggle Bus Stop every day and picks me up after school. What would I do without her!

Third of all, I have about 80,000 emails I need to send for my responsibilities as an RA, on Hillel board, and trying to find a research position. Sending one email is nothing, but the daunting task of sending 80,000 just seems like it will take forever and I am putting it off. BUT NOT TONIGHT! Tonight, I message!

Fourth, my ear is still plugged. I don't know if this is something I am just going to have to learn to live with or not, but it is a little annoying to always have your left ear popping in and out and then returning to a plugged state. Hmph.

Fifth, the Palestinian Authority is unilaterally declaring statehood at the UN tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. I just want peace.

Sixth, I dreamt about my kitties last night and I MISS them ever so much. I know it isn't realistic for me to think that I could care for animals while at college, but I so wish that I could keep some kitties in my room. (Now that I think of it, I also dreamt that I went to a tzniut dress shop and a video rental store, I visited my mom's old dorm at UB, and the elevator flipped onto its side halfway through the ride and began to go sideways as part of its route. Hmmmmm)

Seventh, I forgot to stock up and now I am left without a hun-cal Chewy bar for my breakfast.



Sit with me on the Sruggle Bus?

Monday, September 5, 2011

WE'RE BAAAAAAAACK

Title of this post dedicated to Adina II because she likes to make fun of people who make "WE'RE BAAAAAAAAACK" the title of their back-to-college facebook albums.

Here are some fun things going on:
1. I am taking physics, chemistry, human biology & evolution, and statistics
2. I am tutoring a biology supplementary class--the same one I took last semester and LOVED
3. I am eating my dinners at Kappa Delta and enjoying sorority life greatly (Chef Wendy is an angel in disguise)
4. I went to an Episcopalian service yesterday evening and I recognized several items on the agenda: a) Joyful Joyful from Sister Act, b) "Sing a new song to the Lord, for He has worked wonders" from Kabbalat Shabbat (mizmor shiru la'shem shir chadash), c) We read a portion from Exodus! I really appreciated what was going on during the service and I liked the organ. It was a cool vibe. The Reverend gave a sermon on the part of Exodus where God kills all of the Egyptian first borns. He said, most of the time I just skip over this passage because it is hard to understand, but today I will attempt to grapple with it. He gave a few different perspectives of fellow Christian leaders and it seemed like it was a rare thing for him to question a word of God. This made me really fall in love with Judaism again for a few reasons. First, it is the entire POINT of Judaism to question the word of God. Second, we have such a long tradition of commentary that there is no letter in the Tanach without a second and third meaning. I wanted to raise my hand and say, well, Reverend, did you check out what Rashi has to say about that line? Or any number of other commentators? Third, I really appreciated that my Jewish upbringing has included youth group and college services, which both include STUDENTS giving dvrei torah (sermons) to STUDENTS. It means so much more to me now that there aren't rabbis calling the pages at our services or giving us speeches on what THEY think the Torah means. It's awesome that it all comes from other students.
5. I'm working with the Women's Organization At Hillel to plan amazing Rosh Chodesh programming this semester!! Including leading a session at the Women of Color Conference at Cornell in November!
6. Kappa Delta mixed with Sigma Alpha Mu last night and it was epic.
7. All I want to do is listen to country music all day erry day.
8. Being an RA in Risley is A-MAZANG. I love it. I love this building, I love the people, I love the art shop, I love living in a single, I love my residents, I love making bulletin boards, I love everything. Except getting called to do a lock-out.
9. Human Biology and Evolution is a sick class. We are learning about HIV and lactose tolerance and creationism and all kinds of really relevant topics!
10. My position on Risley RA staff is faculty fellow coordinator, so lately I've been dining and meeting with some of the most fantastic/bizarre/cultured people on campus. Did I mention I love my job? Oh yeah, also my boss, Barnaby, is super duper funny.
11. Meeting freshmen is great. I feel like I have such a grip on my life when I explain to them how I got involved in stuff and what I'm doing now. There are so many little Jewish gap-year girls that I am getting close to! I feel like I have a special connection with them, but also other freshmen. In general, I really like the new students that I've met!!
12. My best friends from freshmen year have scattered, but the good news is: we still see each other, we still love each other. The long distance is hard (Rachel and I used to be about 20 rooms away on the same floor and Adina was just below us), but we are figuring it out. And using cars!
13. Babysitting for L- again is great! She teaches me so much about life.
14. Went "swimming" at Treman State Park with Adina, Julia, Maddy, and Sam, and last week I walked up a waterfall with L-, also there is a gorge behind Risley where we ate lunch once!
15. Highlights from Risley: Soul Power Dance Party, Bro Night
16. Currently crocheting a kippah, soon I will start crocheting gold wire!

Basically, everything feels really under control right now and I'm having a lot of fun. I have many problem sets and lots to read, but it's okay because I still have enough time to see my friends and frat it up. Conveniently, those activities often occur in the same place at the same time. Life is good, Ithaca is gorges, my friends are the best, Cornell is perfect.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

World Traveling!!!

Places I've been in the last four weeks: New York, NY, Somerset, NJ, Berlin, Prague, Krakow, Lublin, Warsaw, Jerusalem, and Modi'in

City with the coolest vibe: Berlin
City I wish I didn't like: Berlin
Best photo op: highway turned parking lot in Germany and look out over Prague
Prettiest: Prague
Creepiest: Terezinstadt (Czech Republic) and Lublin (Poland)
Sickest: Majdanek-literally IN Lublin, the crematorium smells like fire
Home: Jerusalem
Best museum tour guide: Krakow
Worst tour guide: Auschwitz (she had a thick Polish accent, spoke quickly, and was so desensitized to the whole thing I didn't even realize at first when she said in a monotone: "Here the SS doctors conducted illegal medical experiments")
Best Holocaust memorial: Berlin-concrete boxes and Majdanek
Best memorial in general: John Lennon wall in Prague
Flashback locations: padlock bridge in Prague and Beit Nativ in Jerusalem
Unexpected favorite: Polish shtetl of Tincochen and surrounding countryside
Most communist: Warsaw
Worst customer service: Praha (simply RUDE!)
Least interesting: Somerset, NJ (but staff week was SUPER FUN because of all my friends!!!!)
Best food: Modi'in (I'm staying with a phenomenal family who also happens to be vegetarians, and I went to Yossi's house for lunch today--all wins)
Worst food: Poland in general
Greatest night of my life: in Warsaw on Roxy's birthday (we sang karaoke to If I Were a Rich Man and the crowd joined in for yubby dibby dibby)
Rainiest: Krakow
Sunniest: Israel
Homiest: Jerusalem

Books I've read recently: The Help, E.L. Doctorow, Middlesex, 2.5 Minute Ride, and Adjusting Sights (by Haim Sabato)
ALL RECOMMENDED!!!

Defiant moments of being Jewish in places where there was a Holocaust: sitting on benches in the Tier Garden in Berlin, a place where Jews were not allowed to sit under the Nuremberg Laws. We ate bagged lunches and sang the Grace After Meals; breaking out a Cliff Bar outside Majdanek; walking on the tracks as we exited Birkenau; praying in synagogues that were abandoned or ruined during the war

Frequent photo symbolism employed in Eastern Europe: trees, flowers, barbed wire, butterflies, fences, crows, guard towers, Israeli flags, Jewish stars, candles

Random encounters: befriending my neighbor on the plane to Berlin and learning her life story over the course of several hours, angry Israeli woman in Berlin who didn't want us to do a tour where she was also touring because it would distract her, bathroom attendant in Germany who spoke Hebrew to us, Israeli Dance troupe in Prague, woman in a picture in a synagogue in Tincochen who looks identical to my mother

Movies I'm supposed to see: Counterfeit, The Last Train, Conspiracy

Books I want to read: The Magician of Lublin by Isaac Singer, other works by Isaac Singer, Mila 18 (we were there!)

Average hours of sleep I get per night: 5 hours

Average number of liters of water I drink per day: 2

Average number of liters of sweat I sweat per day: 1

Average number of pictures I take per day: 100

Rediscovered hidden talents: wiggling ears, not picking the skin of my face, telling military time, drawing and sketching

Proud purchases: pretty scarf from Praha and crocheted gold wire earrings from Tel Aviv (Nachalat Binyamin)

New favorite song (not actually favorite but definitely a winner): Jack Sparrow by Lonely Island

Favorite part about this trip: MY KIDS AND MY COS!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

shalom from berlin!!!

more on this later...but what an amazing city!!!!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

The Ads...

Just a quick explanation about the weird Jewish Funeral ads that keep popping up on the side of my blog:

Google AdSense picks up keywords from my blog and places "relevant" advertisements on the site. The effectiveness of these ads will be measured on a per-click basis and will supposedly earn revenue.

The main point I wanted to communicate about this new addition to shalomfromhome is that they are not dangerous to your computer and they are not a permanent fixture.

Should you ever have some free time, though, feel free to click!!